Today’s been a strange day as my ego has had a pretty thorough bashing. Started off at work when we had a design review for the over project I’m working on right now, and while that’s not really that bad a thing as my design is pretty good, not perfect by any stretch of the imagination although that’s not entirely my fault. It’s just tough standing there having lived this design for 8 months and for someone to come along and ask you ‘why you didn’t do it another way?’ The thing is I’d have probably thought of it that way, oooo I dunno 5 months ago and honestly can’t remember.

The next point and I really shouldn’t care as much as I do is that fact that ONE lone ranger has voted for me on the beermatt competition. I find that pretty damn depressing to be honest. If really does seem that I’m not in check with the pulse of today’s designer nation. It’s a really blow actually, as I really put a lot into that image. Every single part of it is completely photoshop which I’m pretty proud of.

Don’t get me wrong I feel honoured that I was selected to be one of the final 13, and I did really enjoy participating in the whole competition, but I’ve got to say that it’s pretty demoralising getting one lone vote.

Kind of makes me worried for the future when I release my book, and the biggest fear would be that nothing happens. Nobody cares. It’s a pretty scary thought actually, but I guess I should know better than get sucked into that deal. Some people will go for something, while other people won’t; the creator of any work hasn’t got any say in how the audience reacts.

The good news is that I just packaged Manji as I’m now calling it up for the beta testers. They’ve just got 2 months worth of work, sweat and tears in a 40k zip file. Now if that’s not depressing I don’t know what is. 2 months and all I could show for it is 40k zip file. From one end I suppose that’s a good thing because it means that my site will be able to handle the bandwidth potentially if it’s a popular theme. We’ll see.